Didnt go to school today as i didnt want to.
went polyclinic w maid aftertht.
saw Ahjin, Hweesiang, Jingzhe and Cecilia thr also.
well, skipped everything and shall start on my 30 days letter now.

Day 1 - Your Best Friend
best friend? do i have one? NO. i used to have one but now it's gone. we used to do crazy stuffs tgt. we always sit w each other in the bus. we always follow each other wherever we go. we used to make a wish on every first day of the month at 12pm and tht's what you taught me. you would used to hold my hand everytime we cross the road. we used to go to lan tgt. i would always sneak out afterschool to go JP or Bugis w you. i would always find excuses for my parents just to go out w you or when i reached home late. we would always go to mini toons to buy those sweets. we would always camwhore wherever we go. but now, because of all the mistakes i've done it just gone like this. till now, even if i saw you in school i do not have the face to look at you or smile at you. sometimes i was really naive to think tht you would give me a chance. well, what's over is over alr. you and i dont hold any grudges anymore yeah? i just hope you would be happy out thr alright. thanks for those beautiful memories for the past 3 years. i've nvr forgotten any single one of them, really.


Day 2 - Your Crush
yes, my boyfriend is my crush. i rmb the first time we met at Safra Yishun whr you was playing pool. my intention thr was to accompany Jiaying go find Darren. i didnt even notice you at all until Darren keep asking Jiaying "eh, this guy hen shuai hor?" then we were both v annoyed by him and said "na li you? Nigel bi jiao shuai hor? :D" i was thinking tht Darren wanted to intro you to Jiaying. but i didnt expect tht Darren would tell me tht someone wants my number and we started texting each other. i didnt really care abt all the messages tht you've sent at first. as i havent let go of Minhui tht time. the first time you ask me out to pei you go cwp and i agreed. but in the end afterschool i asked Jiaying to call you to say tht i've got remedial i guess? and i even asked Mervin to act as my stead to get rid of you. and tht's the first time Mervin became so pekchek w me. but in the end, i still agreed to turn up. i pei you go collect your phone tgt w Wenbin and aftertht to AMK. you started talking to me but i was rather shy so didnt talk much. but idk why but you made me smile all the way. you asked me to text you when i reached home and so i did. the third time we met you wanted to have one on one w darren because Ben told you somethings. and tht day you was so angry and left on your own. aftertht you text me because you told me you was jealous. why jealous? because you love me. and i guess thts when i started to fall for your words. then i told you if you love me why cant you wait? and then you asked me how long do i have to wait? 10 years? 20 years? and aftertht i told you if you cant wait then dont wait. aftertht you asked Ahjin to send me home and after i reached home, at around 8pm. you told me to call you and i did. we chatted and chatted till around 11. and you sent me 6 messages full of i love you cos you said you cant sleep. you asked me if i was touched the next day i said no. and i even teased you tht you copy and paste. LOL. on 26 October, during recess you called Darren's phone. you wanted to ask me for stead but you dont dare to because i guess you was afraid of the rejection. Hence, you asked darren to ask me instead. i said idk but you said cannot idk must be either yes or no. so i said not now. for a moment i told darren tht i wanna accept you on 11 November because 11/11 and the year after is 2011. and i didnt expect him to tell you. then the next day when we met was the day when you was supposed to go back to school w your mum to see the principal. and tht was the day when you asked me why did i want to choose 11/11? is the date and time important? and i said yes. then you asked me why not 27102010;10:27PM? i gave you the answer idk again. then you told me ok, tonight at 10:27PM if my answer is no then give you a miss call once. if it's yes, give you twice. and in the night, i missed call you twice. and tht's how we started our r/s. we went to AMK on the next day after we stead as you wanted to make your EZ-Link card. aftertht we went back to khatib to wait for Leonard. and awhile later the the 3 of us walked to yishun park. and otw thr you said you nvr held any of your exs hand before and you didnt dare to hold mine also. and i've to thanks Leonard ahkhor for letting you overcome tht fear. my feelings for you started to grow uncontrollably. i would make a wish almost every single night at 11:11PM for us to last as long as we could, although ppl says tht it isnt true. but i still wants to give it a try. you nvr know how important you are to me right now. have all those i said bought back memories to you? i think tht both our attitudes towards each other had changed. I dont call you tht often anymore. unless you calls me to call you. it wasnt like tht at all in the past. Now, i guessed i dont even want to bother checking my phone for any messages anymore, because you didnt text me. but i was the one who text you first. i was thinking, are we drifting? has your feelings fade for me? idk why but everytime i think of all this i would cry. nvr had i cried so much for a guy before. and all i could was to pour everything out to Leonard and Nicole. i seriously dont know if we would be able to continue moving on if its continue going like this. if you dont love me anymore please tell me. idw others to come tell me one day tht you had fallen for another girl. please.. i just want to tell you tht i really love you alot boy, and i hope you'll too.

Day 3 - Your Parents
well, thr's not much tht i can say. they are going to divorce anyway.

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